The Cure That Kills

For my feeling like my heart is going to shatter my rib cage and
the vice around my sternum that stops my breath, I have sought remedy.
Finally, after a lifetime of enjoying these neat features of my day
that I believed were what helped everyone wake up and face their day.

The times over the past ten years when I knew it wasn't right and said
so were met with threatened silence so I changed my mind.

The thereapy has put me towards being free of all this....eventually.
In the MEAN time I have been put on a medication. Which worked really
well for one night.

But tonight about 39 minutes after I took it, instead of sleeping, I sit here,
on the edge of my bed, because my I can see my heart beat in my chest,
there are pains shooting up and down my neck which has stiffened well.

I am trying to slow my breathing.

I can live with it; I'm used to it; I can't say I am not disappointed.